Grow baby Grow - 17 weeks and 2 days

If you read my blog and you're seeing this post.. congratulations you have now seen my bare belly. I don't feel like it's something I can confidently put out there on social media or whatever but I want to include it here in my blog for myself because I think it gives a better picture of how big (or how small) my bump is without the distraction of a flowery shirt haha.

I love that tiny little belly. I love falling asleep with my hand on it and then waking up in the morning having it there again. I'm sure I will change my mind about it once it gets ginormous haha. But I'm happy to have it now and to see it grow.

17 Weeks

How far along? 17 Weeks! 

How big is baby? A chipmunk, so cute!! Pomegranate, game controller, white onion, 5.1 inches and 5oz. 

Weight gain: I'm not sure! I'll find out in a couple weeks. 

Symptoms: Headaches still. My skin has been super itchy lately. The last couple days I HAVE NOT been feeling well and I'm not sure what's up. My stomach just hasn't been happy with what I've been eating I guess. I feel really sluggish. I know I only have the tiniest, non existent bump ever.. but the little tummy that I have grown is definitely making every day things difficult even already. (man am I in for it later on when I actually have a giant bump). I HATE flipping over when I'm sleeping. But I seem to be doing it a lot lately. 

Sleeping: Sleep is becoming more and more difficult. One thing that had been helping me fall a sleep almost instantly though is turning on a bob ross episode hahah. But for real it is so relaxing and helps me a ton. Paul will turn it on and usually in 5 minutes or less I'm out. He always takes a screen shot of the finished master piece at the end so I can look at it in the morning which makes me happy. 

Food Cravings: I haven't really had much of any cravings. I have a grilled cheese sandwich almost every day which is yummy. I've been loving a bowl of bananas, blueberries and chia seeds. Yesterday I ate like 10 dove chocolates. But that's not really anything abnormal haha. 

Food Aversions: I just can't really eat anything that other people have made unless it's in a restaurant or whatever. I know that's probably weird because in a restaurant it's probably 10x more sick. 

Miss anything? I miss Paul right now. He's interviewing for a job at the moment. 

Gender: I still think it's a girl but the thought of a boy gets more and more exciting. Seriously as soon as we picked out a couple names we love for a little boy, it got really exciting. 2 weeks and we find out! 

Maternity Clothes: Nope! 

Movement: Those tiny flutters and bumps still! So fun. I haven't felt a big roll since last week. 

Random: I can't use the shampoo and conditioner that I used my first trimester. It makes me SO sick! 

I've been listening to a lot of Beatles and Bahamas lately. Hope this baby enjoys some of the best!

What I'm looking forward to: My next appointment of course! I also ordered some oil online so I'm super excited to get that to help with this weird itching. 

Best moment this week: Free Bahama Bucks! They opened one in Provo and if we end up living near there we will be in trouble because I will be going every day. 

Also Paul getting second interview with an awesome company in Orem! We are hoping for the very best but know if this one doesn't work out, there will be more opportunities for us.

16 weeks

How far along? 16 weeks! 

How big is baby? Dill pickle, avocado, action figure.. 4-5 inches and 3-5 oz. 

Weight gain: At my last doctors appointment I stepped on the scale and almost died at the sight of how much I weighed. I didn't want to be "that girl" who was always worried about her weight when pregnant but.. I totally am. And now I understand how hard it is to see those numbers on the scale. My doctor said I am totally fine especially because I started my pregnancy at such a low weight but it's still difficult, ya know? Especially because I have to make sure I am eating something every two or three hours or else I really do go crazy. It's also super annoying too because my body doesn't have something good to show for the weight gain! Still waiting for that baby bump. I think as time moves on and as I become more connected with my baby, my weight concern will hopefully fall and I'll focus more on this journey I'm on. Paul and I are starting to use the local indoor track not to lose weight obviously but just to help me mentally know that I am taking care of my body and my baby. It's already helped a lot. 

Symptoms: Headaches a lot still. Round ligament pain in groin. Tired as always. Weird skin problems that I won't go into although my face has been pretty clear lately. 

Sleeping: Still pretty well. Paul usually doesn't go to sleep until after midnight because he's a crazy coding weirdo :) So when he comes to bed I'll wake up and use the bathroom. 

Food Cravings: I'm not really craving much at all. Burgers always sound great but not necessarily craving them. I'm not even craving ice cream or chocolate (which is very surprising). I guess mostly just fruit and juice. 

Food Aversions: Chicken still kinda grosses me out unless it's grilled. 

Miss anything? Not much to miss! I ate a meat sandwich today so I guess that makes me a rebel. 

Gender: I've been doing some of the wives tale pregnancy predictors and every one of them has said girl! We still think it's a girl but we finally thought of a couple boy names that we love so I would be totally happy with a boy! We find out the gender at my next appointment in a couple weeks!!! 

Maternity Clothes: Not yet! Still living in my leggings and t shirts to stay comfy. I can't bring myself to buy new garments yet so just dealing with my tight ones by cutting a little slit to give me some extra room. Probably not the best thing to do but I'm going to be retiring them soon anyways. 

Movement: I've been wondering if those tiny flutters I've been feeling are movements but yesterday (January 13th) Paul and I were sitting on the bed and all of a sudden I felt the craziest and weirdest "roll" type feeling just below my belly button. I jumped because it scared me and said "Oh my gosh!" Paul flipped around and was like "What?! Is there a spider??!" hahaha. It was pretty funny that Paul thought I had seen a spider and jumped because I was scared haha. So exciting! I can't wait to feel it again. 

Random: Some things just gross the heck out of me. I'm so paranoid about germs it's getting annoying. I carry around a bottle of hand sanitizer every where I go. I also can't stand the smell of other people (besides Paul). We've been spending a lot of time at the library every day and getting wiffs of other people is the worst for me. 

I've been having the craziest dreams still. The other night I dreamed that Paul and I were at J dogs getting a hot dog to share and they totally messed up our order. I complained about it and all of the workers were like "We are sorry! We just aren't very good at making hot dogs!" and I was so confused and was like "Umm this is a hot dog restaurant? Shouldn't you be good at making hot dogs?" hahah. Last night I dreamed that we were in California with my Mother and Father in law and Paul and I were so hungry but they wouldn't let us eat anything but soda and movie popcorn haha. 
The dream that tops them all though was the one where I put baked potatoes on my boobs to "sooth" them because they were hurting so bad hahah.

What I'm looking forward to: My next appointment in a couple weeks! I'm so excited to see him/her again and spend a lot of time looking at all the body parts. Also, so excited to find out the gender! I'll be seriously so happy either way. 

Best moment this week: Paul getting his first job interview and applying to a million jobs all over! We've been applying like crazy and we are starting to apply to jobs outside of Utah so we will see where we go! I'm really excited to get settled again and have a place we call home for at least a little bit. Also going to the temple this week was so great. We went to the Timpanogos temple for the first time and it was really pretty! ALSO feeling maybe move and knowing for sure it was baby and not just gas. :)