Grow baby Grow - 17 weeks and 2 days

If you read my blog and you're seeing this post.. congratulations you have now seen my bare belly. I don't feel like it's something I can confidently put out there on social media or whatever but I want to include it here in my blog for myself because I think it gives a better picture of how big (or how small) my bump is without the distraction of a flowery shirt haha.

I love that tiny little belly. I love falling asleep with my hand on it and then waking up in the morning having it there again. I'm sure I will change my mind about it once it gets ginormous haha. But I'm happy to have it now and to see it grow.

17 Weeks

How far along? 17 Weeks! 

How big is baby? A chipmunk, so cute!! Pomegranate, game controller, white onion, 5.1 inches and 5oz. 

Weight gain: I'm not sure! I'll find out in a couple weeks. 

Symptoms: Headaches still. My skin has been super itchy lately. The last couple days I HAVE NOT been feeling well and I'm not sure what's up. My stomach just hasn't been happy with what I've been eating I guess. I feel really sluggish. I know I only have the tiniest, non existent bump ever.. but the little tummy that I have grown is definitely making every day things difficult even already. (man am I in for it later on when I actually have a giant bump). I HATE flipping over when I'm sleeping. But I seem to be doing it a lot lately. 

Sleeping: Sleep is becoming more and more difficult. One thing that had been helping me fall a sleep almost instantly though is turning on a bob ross episode hahah. But for real it is so relaxing and helps me a ton. Paul will turn it on and usually in 5 minutes or less I'm out. He always takes a screen shot of the finished master piece at the end so I can look at it in the morning which makes me happy. 

Food Cravings: I haven't really had much of any cravings. I have a grilled cheese sandwich almost every day which is yummy. I've been loving a bowl of bananas, blueberries and chia seeds. Yesterday I ate like 10 dove chocolates. But that's not really anything abnormal haha. 

Food Aversions: I just can't really eat anything that other people have made unless it's in a restaurant or whatever. I know that's probably weird because in a restaurant it's probably 10x more sick. 

Miss anything? I miss Paul right now. He's interviewing for a job at the moment. 

Gender: I still think it's a girl but the thought of a boy gets more and more exciting. Seriously as soon as we picked out a couple names we love for a little boy, it got really exciting. 2 weeks and we find out! 

Maternity Clothes: Nope! 

Movement: Those tiny flutters and bumps still! So fun. I haven't felt a big roll since last week. 

Random: I can't use the shampoo and conditioner that I used my first trimester. It makes me SO sick! 

I've been listening to a lot of Beatles and Bahamas lately. Hope this baby enjoys some of the best!

What I'm looking forward to: My next appointment of course! I also ordered some oil online so I'm super excited to get that to help with this weird itching. 

Best moment this week: Free Bahama Bucks! They opened one in Provo and if we end up living near there we will be in trouble because I will be going every day. 

Also Paul getting second interview with an awesome company in Orem! We are hoping for the very best but know if this one doesn't work out, there will be more opportunities for us.

16 weeks

How far along? 16 weeks! 

How big is baby? Dill pickle, avocado, action figure.. 4-5 inches and 3-5 oz. 

Weight gain: At my last doctors appointment I stepped on the scale and almost died at the sight of how much I weighed. I didn't want to be "that girl" who was always worried about her weight when pregnant but.. I totally am. And now I understand how hard it is to see those numbers on the scale. My doctor said I am totally fine especially because I started my pregnancy at such a low weight but it's still difficult, ya know? Especially because I have to make sure I am eating something every two or three hours or else I really do go crazy. It's also super annoying too because my body doesn't have something good to show for the weight gain! Still waiting for that baby bump. I think as time moves on and as I become more connected with my baby, my weight concern will hopefully fall and I'll focus more on this journey I'm on. Paul and I are starting to use the local indoor track not to lose weight obviously but just to help me mentally know that I am taking care of my body and my baby. It's already helped a lot. 

Symptoms: Headaches a lot still. Round ligament pain in groin. Tired as always. Weird skin problems that I won't go into although my face has been pretty clear lately. 

Sleeping: Still pretty well. Paul usually doesn't go to sleep until after midnight because he's a crazy coding weirdo :) So when he comes to bed I'll wake up and use the bathroom. 

Food Cravings: I'm not really craving much at all. Burgers always sound great but not necessarily craving them. I'm not even craving ice cream or chocolate (which is very surprising). I guess mostly just fruit and juice. 

Food Aversions: Chicken still kinda grosses me out unless it's grilled. 

Miss anything? Not much to miss! I ate a meat sandwich today so I guess that makes me a rebel. 

Gender: I've been doing some of the wives tale pregnancy predictors and every one of them has said girl! We still think it's a girl but we finally thought of a couple boy names that we love so I would be totally happy with a boy! We find out the gender at my next appointment in a couple weeks!!! 

Maternity Clothes: Not yet! Still living in my leggings and t shirts to stay comfy. I can't bring myself to buy new garments yet so just dealing with my tight ones by cutting a little slit to give me some extra room. Probably not the best thing to do but I'm going to be retiring them soon anyways. 

Movement: I've been wondering if those tiny flutters I've been feeling are movements but yesterday (January 13th) Paul and I were sitting on the bed and all of a sudden I felt the craziest and weirdest "roll" type feeling just below my belly button. I jumped because it scared me and said "Oh my gosh!" Paul flipped around and was like "What?! Is there a spider??!" hahaha. It was pretty funny that Paul thought I had seen a spider and jumped because I was scared haha. So exciting! I can't wait to feel it again. 

Random: Some things just gross the heck out of me. I'm so paranoid about germs it's getting annoying. I carry around a bottle of hand sanitizer every where I go. I also can't stand the smell of other people (besides Paul). We've been spending a lot of time at the library every day and getting wiffs of other people is the worst for me. 

I've been having the craziest dreams still. The other night I dreamed that Paul and I were at J dogs getting a hot dog to share and they totally messed up our order. I complained about it and all of the workers were like "We are sorry! We just aren't very good at making hot dogs!" and I was so confused and was like "Umm this is a hot dog restaurant? Shouldn't you be good at making hot dogs?" hahah. Last night I dreamed that we were in California with my Mother and Father in law and Paul and I were so hungry but they wouldn't let us eat anything but soda and movie popcorn haha. 
The dream that tops them all though was the one where I put baked potatoes on my boobs to "sooth" them because they were hurting so bad hahah.

What I'm looking forward to: My next appointment in a couple weeks! I'm so excited to see him/her again and spend a lot of time looking at all the body parts. Also, so excited to find out the gender! I'll be seriously so happy either way. 

Best moment this week: Paul getting his first job interview and applying to a million jobs all over! We've been applying like crazy and we are starting to apply to jobs outside of Utah so we will see where we go! I'm really excited to get settled again and have a place we call home for at least a little bit. Also going to the temple this week was so great. We went to the Timpanogos temple for the first time and it was really pretty! ALSO feeling maybe move and knowing for sure it was baby and not just gas. :)

14 weeks

I was laughing so hard after I took these pics because there is literally no bump. Well I dunno, is there? There's definitely something that wasn't there before. My stomach feels so different and weird. Paul and I both agree that I look bigger but I asked my family over Christmas if there was any bump and all of them said no haha. I think any bump Paul and I see is just french fries anyways. But still! I want to document. Also my shirt is inside out.. also crazy shower hair don't care.

How far along? 14 weeks today!

How big is baby? Let's check the 6 different apps I have on my phone.. Okay.. A large lemon, troll doll (haha), beet, house mouse, small apple, 3.4 inches long and 1.5 oz.

Weight gain: About 4 pounds

Symptoms: Waiting for that burst of energy everyone promises during 2nd trimester! I just want to take naps all day. I fell asleep during the new Star Wars movie. Also headaches.. I get headaches everyday now. But so does Paul soo..

Sleeping: Usually really well at night but some nights I'll wake up at around 4 or 5 and will be up for an hour. Usually my bladder will wake me up and I literally have to force myself to get out of bed and go to the bathroom.

Food Cravings: I think I'm over my obsession of potatoes. I still like them but I'm not craving them anymore. Hot apple cider is good. I dunno.. I'm not really obsessing over anything right now. I'm still a giant hungry monster. I'm not the biggest fan of eating but have to eat a meal every 2 hours or I am one cranky individual. Trust me, do not deprive me from food or there will be problems.

Food Aversions: I thought for sure I would hate beef but it's actually chicken I can't stand. I'll eat chicken nuggets or fried chicken. But I've accidentally ordered a few chicken burritos in the last few weeks and it just grosses me out. Not many other specific foods that I can't stand, though. I've been pretty picky about my food for sure but I'm not going to puke if I see certain food I just won't eat it.

Miss anything? Some really good sushi. But I also think that the whole sushi thing is a myth and I'm not too concerned if I go and eat some once in awhile. Same with cold deli meats. I'm pretty sure more pregnant women have gotten sick over not washing their fruits and vegetables compared to cold cuts. But what do I know!

Gender: We both still think it's a girl and have our name picked out. The only reason I'm hoping it's not a boy is because I cannot for the life of me figure out a good name. The little man will probably end up being named (here comes the eye rolls..) Ringo. Which isn't bad. But I'm not completely sold on it yet. Paul likes it. I like Jude better. I got my first eye roll and mumble when I told someone our girl name. Come on people, it's not like another persons name is going to kill you. Keep the eye rolling to yourself, thank you!

Maternity Clothes: No but living in my leggings and Pauls underwear! haha If anyone has any advice on maternity garments let me know!

Movement: When we saw our little bean during the ultra sound it was just chilling there but wiggling its arms and feet. I'm praying praying PRAYING for a chill baby. Knowing our personalities I'm thinking he/she will be a calm child. (PLLLEASSEE be anti-social and shy and a home body and calm and not a crazy person!!) I haven't felt any movement yet though. A couple times I THOUGHT I felt a little tickle but it was most likely gas.

Random: I've become like the biggest clean snob there ever was. Thinking about germs that are everywhere grosses me out and don't even get me started on people hacking and sneezing around me. I'm sorry I'm sorry! I don't know why I'm being such a weirdo about cleanliness.. But in all honesty it's not the worst thing to be a snob about.

What I'm looking forward to: I have an appointment on January 4th and I'm excited to hear the heart beat. I think the next appointment in 4 weeks will be the anatomy scan where we find out the gender. Exciting!! Also not really baby related but I'm looking forward to Paul getting his first real job and for us not to be homeless anymore! I can't wait to get into our own place again.

Best moment this week: We went to Rexburg for a couple days and seeing my niece and nephew was definitely the highlight of Paul and I's life. We both love them SO MUCH. Kids gross us both out so much but for some reason T and B don't make us want to wash our hands every five seconds haha. I've always told my sister and Paul that I can't imagine loving even my own child more than I love Tanner and Bree. I hope my child gets their sweetness and spunk. Also being around them really made me feel even more excited for my little babe to come. It's kinda weird to love someone that you haven't even met yet.

10 weeks 5 days-First prenatal appointment!

I went into my first prenatal appointment SO nervous and SO scared. Doctor offices are just so stressful to me! But I left feeling so so happy and excited! I already love my doctor and the staff. They made me feel extremely comfortable and taken care of.

So I went in and my doctor immediately could tell I was so nervous haha so after he went through the normal questions he jumped up and said "Alright now for the fun part! We get to see your baby!" In the ultrasound room I was so nervous that we wouldn't be able to see the baby for some reason but as soon as he started there popped up our tiny little bean! It's just so weird seeing a living THING inside of my body! We listened to the heart beat and that's when I had a few little tears haha. I looked over at Paul and he was just so cute and excited (Probably a little scared too). We actually SAW the heart beat too! A tiny little flutter. It was at 170 which makes me think it's a girl just from the myth that if the heart beat is super fast then it's most likely a girl. But who knows! Then we saw the little thing wiggling it's hands and feet and that totally freaked me out haha! How crazy and amazing is this whole thing?? The doctor measured the baby and bumped the due date up just a little bit from July 2 to June 29th.

THAT is a BABY inside me! What!

 I just kept saying "That is so cool" haha. I had no other words! 

We ended our perfect day with temple lights and a slice of cheese cake from the cheese cake factory! 

9 weeks

I cannot believe how blessed I've been so far throughout this first trimester! I've only had a couple close encounters where I've felt like I was seriously going to barf. One of those times was in THE BEST Mexican restaurant in AZ. The other time was in the temple doing sealings haha. But both times I survived without throwing up.

I've felt dizzy and HUNGRY. I'm like this giant hungry monster all the time. Even when I'm not pregnant I'm a hungry monster but this is 10x worse. Almost every hour I have to stuff my face with something or else I do get sick. My goal everyday is to eat. and eat a lot! I haven't had much food aversion which is SO nice. Sometimes meat grosses me out but that's pretty rare. I CRAVE potatoes! It first started with french fries (mmmm Wendeys..) and then thanksgiving came around and I could not have enough mashed and baked potatoes. So good.

I've gained a little weight (prob from all those dang french fries) and I go back and forth with being sad about it haha. I'm naturally small so this is a big change for me but I know that it's for the best of both me and baby! My garments are getting tight so I've been wearing Pauls to bed (ahhh so comfy). I just bought some new leggings but I don't know what I was thinking because I'm pretty sure they are going to be too tight around the belly in even a couple weeks. I wear T shirts everywhere even when I'm not pregnant so I'm not concerned about maternity clothing much.

I have to pee a lot. haha. The most annoying thing ever is when I've tucked myself into bed for the night and all of a sudden I have to run to the bathroom. Also at 3am. On the dot most nights.

Speaking of night time.. I'm having seriously the crrraaazzziest dreams. My boobs hurt like no other so the other night I had a dream that before I went to sleep I put baked potatoes on them to sooth them. hahaha. I should probably try it out now! I threw up on Jenny Rammells shoes in one dream haha. I also dreamed that we wrapped our baby up like a little burrito and she was soooo cute!

I haven't been super emotional.. yet. I think today has been my worst day. But it could just be a off day too so I'm not sure if the hormones are kicking in or if it's just normal Karie. I haven't cried in a long time it seems like but today I did. Mostly because I'm so stressed out about finding a place to rent in the next month or so. Also wishing we didn't have to mooch off of family (we live in my brothers basement for the time being while Paul finishes up his school). It's a crazy time in our lives!

I've been pretty open about telling people that I'm pregnant. Mostly because I'm trying to convince myself that I am actually pregnant haha. It still does not seem real. Sometimes I feel like I'm lying when I tell people. Hannah was the first one that Paul and I told. I'm pretty sure I told her the day we found out haha.  So far Price family knows, Ragar family knows, Hannah, Jenny, Kylie and Lani. Oh the nice sealer in the temple knows. But he knew before I even told him!

Paul and I both think it's going to be a girl. We already have our name picked out (Pauls favorite girl name) but if it's a boy I have no name ideas at all. Pretty much all the nieces and nephews say it's a girl which I think is super funny. One of our little nephews said "It's a girl but I want it to be a boy" haha!

Well my first appointment is on the 5th of December. It seems so late but people tell me that's normal. I'll be 10 weeks. I can't believe I'm almost done with my first trimester. Seems so weird. My biggest fear is that I'm going to go into my appointment and they'll say "Oh you're not pregnant at all! and you never were!" Like I was never pregnant haha!